December 31, 2010

Hopes & Dreams

I hope that 2011 brings more sunshine (nice sunshine, not the skin scorching, global warming sunshine please!!)
I hope that I will keep up swimming at least twice a week, it gives me a sense of perspective
I hope that I will be able to finish my Masters program
I hope that I will be able to take more shots with Mr Pink
I hope that I will be able to learn more
I dream of traveling more
I dream of love
I dream of marital bliss
I dream of happiness

Happy New Year Loves

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December 15, 2010

Oh Hello Marc!

Hello hello!
Ok, so everyone knows very well that I am by no means a fashion blogger (check previous post :p ) but for some time now I've been receiving emails from Daniel Footwear on all their wonderful new footwear. So they have recently brought in the new Marc by Marc Jacobs collection and I am loving the shoes and bags! Seriously though, don't these boots just scream "one of these days these boots are gona walk all over you..!" ;) Women’s Shoes by Marc Jacobs - too BLOODY IRRESISTIBLE if you ask me!

Well Daniel Footwear is graciously offering a ₤50 spending voucher (excluding shipping) to one lucky person! All you have to do is:
1. Be a follower and leave a comment on this post
2. To gain an extra entry you can blog or tweet about it. Just remember to leave a comment here with the links.
3. A winner will be drawn at random after Dec 25, 2010. Think of it as a Christmas gift! ;)

Also, woopwoop, I've somehow reached 101 readers! ;) So call this a reward for all you lovely people who have stuck to me so far. I love you guys!

December 10, 2010

My Gripe with Fashion Blogs

Since I've been sick the last few days, I've been doing nothing but blog surfing. My one (lesser known) weakness is fashion blogs. I just love, love, love looking at how different people of different shapes, sizes, heritage put looks together. How their creativity (is supposed to) inspire others, not to create a fashion blog but to challenge themselves to dress better (at least that is what it does for me).

But I have a few complaints:
1. Is it a necessity for all fashion bloggers to use dslr cameras to shoot themselves?
2. Is it fashion or just vanity on your part (sometimes I just don't see the fashion)?
3. Do you really, honest-to-God, go out dressing like how you photographed yourself?
4. How come you manage to find the things that I am lusting after?
5. How do you manage to purchase all your clothes (regardless thrifted or not)?
6. Have you robbed a bank?
7. How come I wasn't invited?

So yeah, those are my complaints, other than the usual, they make me want to rob a bank so that I can go shopping! Also, just to reiterate (look ma big words!LOL), I am NOT slamming any fashion bloggers. These are just some of the questions that randomly pop into my head while I browse. And I did discover a few new fashion blogs. So no ill feelings here whatsoever, God knows I've even posted an outfit picture or two on my humble lil' space.

So yeah, I think I should quite rambling so much! It's pretty late and I should be off to bed!

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December 8, 2010

Under the Weather

Hey lovies, sorry I've been missing in action lately (on both yours and my blog). I've been quite sick the last few days. All I want to do is curl up in bed and just rest, unfortunately my mom doesn't have the same idea. So, I've been busy driving her around, taking her to weddings and stuff. So tired! Today, I am just gona chill at home and watch some bad TV.

On a different note, I was at the mall yesterday and saw this pair of heels that I now can't stop thinking about. However if I do get it, I'll be somewhat broke. But I can't stop thinking about it! HELP! *sigh*

Anyways, have a wonderful week lovies

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December 3, 2010


It's been some time since I posted some snaps of mine using Mr Pink. Here is a dose of national pride from my side of the world! These are the Kuala Lumpur Twin Towers. One of the tallest buildings in the world (I'm not sure at what rank currently though). And these are my favourite building in the world (so far)! These were taken on a cloudy day on Sept 1, 2010 (I remember because it was the day after Malaysia's independence day and boypren was with me).

This last one is my favourite picture of the lot!

p/s: Seriously though, how did Dec come so damn fast??! *SIGH*

November 26, 2010

Pure Lust

So for some strange reason I was browsing the anthropologie website tonight and found these two precious things. There aren't any of their stores in Malaysia but a few blogs that I follow usually rave about their clothes and what not. I am totally in lust for these two necklaces! And it fits my personality too! I am such a bookworm (am in the middle of reading Atonement, just for the pleasure of reading!)!

Alas, it's waaaaaaaaaay too expensive for me! But still it's so damn adorable! I would totally rock it! ;)

Anyways, I found out some of my grades for the subjects that I took this sem and suffice to say that I am not in the least, happy! I got 20/40 for one of the essay and all because I was overconfident (maybe) and wanting so much to excel at the subject. What made things worse was the fact that my lecturer praised me about how it was a well researched and well written essay but it just didn't answer the question. If, however, I had titled it differently I would have gotten a much better grade. I feel so incredibly stupid, you have no idea! All the hard work I put in does not seem to pay me (specifically), I suppose.

I'm totally broken hearted. Right now I am just praying that I do not flunk anything, as repeating a semester is just not an option. Pray for me loves, that all goes well.
*fingers crossed*

Also, Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. Have a beautiful day, loves!

November 22, 2010

Hope, where are you?

Tonight, right now, I feel completely devoid of hope. Although I truly believe that things happen for a reason, a good reason, tonight I just feel incredibly lost.

It's not easy when you are the one keeping the faith and hope alive for four people. It really isn't. I honestly feel like a failure. The one thing I was supposed to do was to give some hope to my family, make sure hope didn't just die, and I failed. I know, tomorrow is going to be a different day but still tonight seems to stretch on till forever. I am just hoping that I will have the strength to be there for all my loved ones with the patience, hope, kindness and love that they need and also expect from me.

I am incredibly tired.


p/s: I have a change of address, email me for the new one loves.

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November 6, 2010


Hello, hello!
Don't worry lovies, I'm not switching content and turning into a fashion blogger, the most I'll ever achieve is to be a 'wannabe' fashion blogger! LOL. I just received this dress, a gift from boypren and I love it so much! I am so in love with the comfy material and the animal prints! I heart it so much. However, I do look worse for wear in the picture so just ignore my mug will ya? ;)

Wore my shiny tights underneath because I followed boypren to the hospital for a routine checkup. Hospitals are unnaturally COLD! Brrrr~

Isn't the back cute? XD

*in the jungle, the mighty jungle, the lion sleeps tonight!*

So, what do you guys think of my outfit? Pass? Fail? Regardless, I think I look cute! ;)
Urgh and now, I have to go back to writing papers and researching for essays. Damn essays, I wish they could write themselves!!
Wish me luck lovies!

November 1, 2010


Hey guys,
thank you so much for whoever that commented on my previous post. The situation with my classmate is still the same. Nothing much has changed, other than the fact that for that person to seem smart I have to be stupid for this person.

So yeah, other than that I got a really good grade for one of my essays. I was really happy until I realised that the pressure is on to maintain the grade. much stress!!

Holy crap it's November already!!


p/s: I was wondering when this was going to happen and it just did, I was at 100 readers and as of now I am at 99. I know numbers shouldn't matter but it is making me a wee bit sad. I am losing readers!

October 21, 2010

Can't sleep

It's 5.51am and for the life of me I haven't managed to get even a wink of sleep. I am so wide awake now it's quite possibly ridiculous. My mind can't stop thinking. I finally managed to catch up with a few blogs but am way too tired to comment on any. I'm sorry guys, I just have been really busy with school.

Talking about school, I am having a difficult time with one of my classmates. It's shocking really as this person is my senior in so many ways and I did genuinely like this person before all these 'stunts' were pulled. The final straw was today I suppose, this person bitched about me to one of my close friends in class.

I was really shocked with this behavior and attitude. If I were to follow what this person has 'commented' about me, it means that me having an opinion and voicing my thoughts make me arrogant and a smartass. So I basically would have to dumb myself down to be a humble person.

This then completely drives the purpose out of preparing/listening to presentations when you can't discuss or comment on it. Why the need bitch? I have never showed or thought that I am better than anyone. In fact, I constantly think that I am at a disadvantage when it comes to my masters class as I am one of the youngest students there with a still quite immature way of thinking. The previous sem, I played quite a bit; this sem, I am putting in some actual effort. So again, why the need to bitch about me?

I could be equally bitchy to this person but I want to be better, so I'll just be nice and kind and let karma do all the hard work. I'm keeping my fingers crossed though that I don't lose my temper with this person.

*fingers crossed*

October 6, 2010

Diagnostic Essay

ItalicHey guys!
Well, I've been wanting to post this for quite some time. I wrote this as a diagnostic essay for my 'Literary Theory' class in the beginning of this semester. Enjoy!

If I had the power, I would NOT abolish literature; I would abolish literary theories instead

As music is the soundtrack of a person’s life, literature is the lessons learnt from life and examples. It expresses love, life, sorrow and joy; all in a beautiful chain of words put together. If I had the power, I would not abolish literature. I would however, abolish all the theories and ‘-isms’ associated with studying literature.

Literatures are works of art imitating life. It is usually created in the most difficult and taxing way. Pulling apart these works of art with theories and such, undoubtedly gives it a place in the ‘literature hall of fame’ but also makes one complacent and neglect the emotions which are lying beyond the surface of the words printed.

Students get so caught up in the theories that they stop enjoying the art of reading, they stop enjoying the words printed on the page. For them it all becomes a rat race, of who can write a better paper, who can come up with a fitting theory.

One would argue that without theories, there would probably never be any breakthrough in the field of literature. It might be so, but there have been so many texts produced before the birth of these theories that are still reveled and will continue to hold a place in the arena of ‘literature’.

Enjoying literature is akin to letting it enter your thoughts, unfolding itself to you. It should not have to be complicated with theories and all. This, however, is my personal opinion. Learning literature has created a difference in me as a person. It makes you feel for others, compels you to think and somehow gets you to make a difference. This is why I would never abolish literature.

p/s: Am I terrible to say that I am proud of this wee little essay?

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October 5, 2010


Last weekend Amy stayed over at my place. On Saturday, I was out the whole day and came back to this wonderful surprise from her. She got me this sweet flower that I forgot to get the week before that (yes, I do forgot to buy things for myself. Lame, I know!) and a peacock feather (which she came across by chance)! I was so surprised!

It was such a lovely surprise! Thank you so much Amy!
Also, HOLY CRAP it's already OCTOBER!! damn, time flies!!
Hope y'all are having a great week!

p/s: Today is the removal of my wisdom tooth. Wish me luck y'all!!

Hey everyone! Thank you for all the good luck wishes. I had my tooth removed last night and today morning all the meds are making me feel real sick :( I guess it's time for me to head back to the bed and continue resting. It's going to be a soft diet for a whole week! and I am already so hungry and it's only the second day today *pout*.
be back soonish!

September 23, 2010

Things that..

...have been putting a big smile on my face...

☺coffee runs☺

☺my peacock hairband☺
(ignore the messy room, it was before we moved out)

☺McDonald's double sausage McMuffin with egg for breakfast☺

☺using my stamp collection and turning it into art for my home☺

☺Cadbury's Picnic chocolate bar...yummm..*drools* ☺

☺dancing in the shower!☺

☺Turquoise and pink sky in Penang☺

☺Getting a lovely surprise in my mailbox from the darling Micaela
She sent me two lovely doilies made by her wonderful Mom, a lovely vintage peacock and a sweet letter. This girl is such a sweetheart! Thank you so much darling, it was exactly what I needed that day. It was the perfect pick-me up! ;)

So, I've been back (in KL and to reality) for a week already and I have realised that I have somewhat lost my mind in between doing all my assignments. And I am in this phase that I just can't be bothered about it anymore. I know, that is so bad! I really need to put on my big girl panties and get with the program! HELPZ!

Anyways, hope the rest of y'all have a happy Thursday and weekend!

September 13, 2010

Here Fishie!

Okay, I know I talked about how there was so much yummy food to be had in Penang; however I sort of forgot to take pics of it and completely devoured my meals! I know, very bad blogger right? So, while in between my meals and assignment, I started wondering what I could do to my hair to make it not so 'blah'. I YouTube-ed and found this lady. Going through her videos I found one on how to create fishtail braids (I know it's a few fashion fads old, but what the heck right?). I tried and succeeded!

Snaps for Farah! Lol! I know this is such a random post but honestly this is what I have been doing in between assignments and meals. On the assignment front, I am still not anywhere close to being done but I think my relationship with food has turned pretty sour and I am taking a break from it! LOL
Hope everyone is having a great Monday!

September 10, 2010

Am possibly a bit late, but
to all!

September 3, 2010

Mr Pink Love

Hey lovies!
Can y'all believe that it's September already? I for sure can't! I've been super duper busy with school. Papers were due on Friday, and after pulling crazy all-nighters, my "wonderful" lecturer informs us that she is giving us a two-day extension! *face palm* I have massive eye bags thanks to her though! Anyways, I'm going to be having my semester break starting today and am heading off to Penang. I really can't wait! All the yummy food. Since I have been absolutely horrible with posts, here is my recently developed roll of my sexy Mr Pink. This roll is from before my semester started, when I still had free time! *pout* I haven't taken Mr Pink out in a reallyyy looooong time. :(

Look at the pretty lights! They sort of look like hearts (or tiny butterflies) don't they?
And oh, this was my first time taking night photos! ;)

A completely out of focus picture of my dessert!

This roll of film that I developed have completely random pictures don't they? Well I guess you can say that I was just fooling around with my Mr Pink! I have two more rolls to share so be patient lovies. hehe. Ooooh and not to forget mentioning, this is the only roll so far that I managed to get all 12 shots. I hope I can figure out how to get that consistently though.

Thanks for reading lovies.
How many of you can't wait for Eid? I sure cant! aaaand I've got sparklers this time around! Woopwoop!

August 28, 2010


I wish I could look this cute while type type typing away on my lappy baby.
Assignments are due this Friday.

August 19, 2010

One of those days...

It seems that everytime I look into the mirror today, I see all my flaws. It’s as if someone took a red marker and circled everything that is wrong with me. All I see are pimples on my face, uneven skin tones, uneven eyebrows, feet that are full of blister scars, white hairs, jelly belly, extremely frizzy hair and a very bad posture.

Usually I am not that self criticising, especially when it comes to the way I look; I am quite comfortable with it (surprisingly). But I guess that today is just one of those days, where everything is far from perfect. Today, I am being the typical victim of perfection.

So instead of mulling over it, I turned up the music; danced a little, put on a cute outfit (even though all I did was stay home and study) and took a deep breath. It was just one of those days where remembering to breathe becomes a little bit difficult. It was just one of those days when you remember you are human, and that you are essentially imperfect.


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August 18, 2010


Recently, I've been feeling a bit like this:

Come on hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living.
Not sure I understand,
This role I’ve been given.
I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans,
My head speaks a language, I don’t understand.
I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
’cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.
Feel, Robbie Williams

I know that I haven't been blogging much lately but I really just couldn't find the words. I feel like I have no time for anything, all I am ever doing is studying. No more social life, no more meeting up with friends; just studying (which I am supposed to be doing right now). I just really need a break, a getaway. I am hoping that my two week semester break will give me exactly what I need, although I see a lot of studying and presentation preparation going on then as well.

In some ways, I feel super detached with everything at the same time. I wonder what is going on in my subconscious. I was driving to uni one day when I heard the above mentioned song. It was the perfect words to go with my life at that very moment. And weirdly enough, I've been hearing it on the radio at random moments when I am feeling vaguely detached. Weird isn't it?

Also sorry that I haven't been around everyone's blog; I have became the Mayor of Nerdsville. I love y'all and miss you to bits. Here's to hoping that I'll be able to come around sooner.

p/s: Hows the fasting going on to those who are observing Ramadhan?

August 2, 2010

Pointless Emo Ranting

First of all let me begin by saying that chivalry is really dead and long gone. Just today there were so many instances which truly showed me that chivalry is indeed dead. I mean seriously, how hard can it be to hold a door open? Really now, how hard is it?

*on to my emo rant*

I feel like my soul is searching for something. I can't exactly describe what it is, but there is this hunger in me which I can't describe. I feel unsatisfied, moody, grumpy and occasionally unhappy. I don't know what is going on in my mind or subconscious, but there is unrest in my soul and I can't figure it out.

At times, it feels as if I am desperate for attention and love. I feel tired all the time! and not to mention, living alone is really making me lonely. Any stray kitten I see I want to adopt. The reason: so that I won't feel so lonely in my apartment. I know, adopting a kitten is a pretty good idea but middle brother is not too keen on it. So yeah, that's that.

Is there generally something wrong with me? Am I just being emo?
I really wish I could figure myself out.
Hope the rest of y'all are having a better Monday compared to me.

I've got some 'xplaining to do. I can't keep a kitten, even though I am living alone, because sometimes I go back to my home town on the weekends and I will need someone to babysit the lil' munchkin. Since the only other people who I allow to enter my house when I'm not around are my brothers that kinda makes it pointless since they don't want to babysit it for me. I know you are probably going to say that I could take it back with me on the weekends but I travel by bus. A whole lot more cons than pros right?

Also I think I am well, physically I mean. I am eating properly, more than I have before. I think it's just loneliness. I guess I tend to get extra lonely every time my mom leaves for home or when I come back from my home town. I suppose you can say that I am a social creature; I need people to talk to.

But, I think I am going to be proactive. I am going to try to make things easier for me. Not thinking all sorts of weird things and try to simplify my life. I hope it works.

Again, sorry for continuing my pointless emo rant.
I love you all to bits!

July 31, 2010


Oh my God!
Can you believe that it is August already? Seriously, an entire month just passed by and I have no clue as to where it went! And I haven't been doing any of my reading the last few days (naughty, naughty me!)! So here are just a few random updates from me:

✻ I have a lecturer who, in my opinion, is a real witch! I swear, she treats us like brainless five year olds! I don't expect to do well in this class with the way its being conducted =(
✻ On the other hand, I've got another lecturer who looks like she is going to drop dead any minute now! She's well over 70 years (I think) and talks, no wait, mumbles rubbish stories about herself! Please bring back my old lecturers, for the love of God!!
✻ I've only read one out of the 22 novels which I have to read. I think my brain has dropped to my knees.
✻ Sometimes, I really hate facebook. It makes me feel as though my life isn't interesting enough, successful enough or pretty enough. Just, not enough.
✻ Finally sent out letters to my penpals, it's on your way lovies! But forgive me if it's too short. I'll make the next ones better, I promise.
✻ Am interested in bloggy buddies who want to be penpals with me. Although I do take time to reply, you have to bear with me on that.
✻ Found my old stamp collection. And now I'm looking for a better book to put it in and maybe photograph it a bit. ;)
Finally ate read velvet cupcakes! I've been craving it for some time, so good!!
✻ Watched Salt, and wasted 90+ minutes of my life! Yes, it was that bad. Don't recommend it at all.
✻ A few important birthdays are coming up this month. ;)
✻ Got a slight haircut. Not that noticeable, not blog worthy me thinks. ;)

Anyways, enjoy August lovies.
Check back with y'all soon.

July 26, 2010

Nobody puts Baby in a corner

Baby: Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw, I'm scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I'm with you.
Dirty Dancing, 1987

Weekends Are For...

✿ playing bowling with the brother and his girlfriend
✿ finding out that you are really bad at bowling
✿ long (and I mean really long) drive back to Penang
✿ laughing with mom and the brothers
✿ eating wonderfully home cooked food made by mom
✿ visiting grandma
✿ hanging out and eating durians with grandma
✿ poking fun at uncles who are single and available
✿ getting annoyed at my brother because he didn't take me around Penang to snap photos with Mr Pink
✿ having car troubles and getting stuck
✿ finding a beautiful Bengal cat (not for sale though)
✿ eating a whole lot of local fruits
✿ smiles

What were you up to lovies?

July 21, 2010


I've spent RM432.15 on texts (novels) for school.
That is a whole lot when you are a student with no form of steady income, depending on family. And I'm not even close to being done getting all my books together.
oh, and this semester, I'm going to be reading 22 novels.


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July 14, 2010


I am really in need of a beach vacation.

“The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears, or the sea.”

Really in need.

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July 11, 2010


Today (Monday) evening, at 6.00pm, the second semester of my classes are officially starting; and I can't help but feel a whole lot of disappointment. I had two months of summer vacation and I can't even remember what I did for the length of it. Nothing memorable comes to mind. It somehow feels as if my holidays were sucked by all the house hunting, real estate agents, financial planning, arguments, furniture, etc.

Where did it all go? Honestly not even my birthday comes to mind, and it wasn't even that bad (by that I mean it wasn't a complete disaster). I didn't take any holiday, no quality time except with my mother and that too wasn't as much as it was for me than for her. Seriously, where did it go?

I feel as tired as I was when my first semester ended. The mental stress keeps adding on and on. I just wish that I can let it all go, relax on a beautiful beach somewhere and just be. No phone calls, no text messages; just me and my love. But I know that is way too much to ask. But is it, really? I don't know. I am just confused, I suppose.

I am just so disappointed with everything and everyone right now I suppose.
Feeling completely lost.


p/s:I managed to get the interwebz in my house with a different provider, yay for that!

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July 9, 2010

Hello Mr Pink!

Hello boys and girls!
Super extremely sorry for being completely m.i.a. without even a hint of what was going on. Basically I was shifting out of my brother's house and into my current apartment. It's has been insane and hectic. To top it all off my second semester for my masters program is starting this coming monday and the house still isn't a home yet. For starters there is no TV and no internet. So I'm not sure when will the next blog update be. Apparently, even though all the telephone cables have been installed the phone company hasn't done the set up yet. Seriously right?

Anyways a few weekends ago I went to a dear friends engagement and I took along my new toy, Mr Pink!

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This is the second roll of 120mm film that I have shot using Mr Pink. The first roll of film came up completely blank. Of course after calling for back up (basically I emailed Rhianne in a panic), I then managed to get these shots. Out of 12 snaps, I got 8 frames. Not bad for a newbie, if I do say so myself (and I do say it!). Check it out and all you lomo-experts, please do feel free to leave any handy tips and tricks.

I am loving the colour of these babies! But I definitely have to work on the focus and I think while I was removing the film from the camera I might have exposed it to the sun (and boy was it sunny that day!). Which is probably why the last few photos look the way they do. But nonetheless, it's LOVE!!

Have a great weekend lovies!


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