First of all I'd like to thank each and everyone of you who took the time to wish me a happy birthday on Friday. It really means a whole lot to me. So thank you lovies!
Now I know most of y'all are curious as to why I was upset with turning 24; quarter life crisis happens only at 25. I was basically having a quarter life crisis at 24. I mean everyone has their own goals and deadlines; so did I.
At 24 I was supposed to have already finished my Masters.
At 24 I was supposed to have experience living abroad for a year.
At 24 the family should have been out of financial difficulties.
At 24 the family drama should have come to an end.
But the reality is;
at 24 I have only finished one semester of my Masters program;
at 24 I do not have the experience of living abroad, being on my own;
at 24 I am still facing the same financial difficulties;
at 24 the family drama has no hint of calming down
I try not to make this tiny space of mine a place to vent about all the (lack of a better word) drama that is happening. I know this is a personal blog and I only post things up that have a direct correlation to me and only me. I don't think that it is 'cool' to be airing family crap anywhere much less the internet. So that bit stays with me. And no matter what happens, I will always love my family.
Anyways on to the 'early quarter life crisis', I know that I have a whole lot to be thankful for; supportive brothers and amazing friends. But for someone who sets goals and thrives on achieving it, I feel like a total failure. So I am taking these few days(Sunday happens to be the last day) to wallow in self pity and misery before going back to normal and thanking God for all He has given me, regardless good or bad.
So for now, I am not setting any goals and am going with the flow. Hopefully things work out for the best. For you, me and everyone in the world. Like I keep saying, to myself and my brother, all the hardships we go through will be rewarded in one way or another. God is fair and just, no matter what religion you believe in.
And this is the end of my self pity and miserable post. I hope I didn't drag your spirits down. We all have to keep believing that things will work out for the best. I really need to believe that things will work out for the best.
Once again thanks for the birthday wishes lovies!
Thank you so much!
Y'all made me feel very special indeed!
Next post shall be about birthday goodness, I promise ;)